Is this normal? I thought it was?

I've been depressed before but now I'm meant to be ok. I'm less ok that I was but I thought it was normal. Then I started thinking, I don't know. I cry into my breakfast every morning because I'm so sad. Then if I have to go work, I do that, and I'm fine, but when I come home, I cry hysterically almost non-stop until I sleep. If I don't go out, I cry during the day, too. I feel very sad but I do have things to be sad about. I feel like I don't want to live but am not actively suicidal.